The best time...
Yesterday the weather was SO nice! It felt like spring! I went out to paint a picture frame and O came out w/ me. We came back in just to get shoes for him and a book for me. We went right back out and enjoyed the sun for 30 minutes or so. It felt so good!
I sat and read my book and O trotted around, he doesn't walk, he trotts! He kept going to the snow and taking a bite, I know gross, but a little bit won't kill him! He'd come on back and give me a wet slobbery kiss and go right back to the snow. He was jibber-jabbering all the while, speaking out loud in a language only he understands!
I got a little misty-eyed as I thought to myself that this is what I love. You are probably thinking it's been a long time since I've been in the sun! That too, but really my thought was I love being a mom. I love watching my kids. I love getting kissed and being loved by them. I love being the only one that understands that crazy language (not that I do much). I love seeing so much joy ooze out of these little people. I love that they are a part of me... even though they got some of the stuff I don't like! I have found so much joy through motherhood.
Sure it's trying, and I feel a huge burden to teach them and care for them, all while trying to do all my other motherly duties and non-motherly duties, all the while trying to stay happy and sane! But, this is what I love. This is what I was made for! This is teaching me about myself, this is filling my life with joy and this is where I fit. This will teach me 'the lessons I need to know'.
This morning I was changing out the little boys' clothes and I felt a little sad as I put away baby things. I don't know if I'm finished having kids, but to have yet another one grow out of these things made me a little sad. I wonder if I will love the other seasons of my life as much as I love early motherhood. I love having older kids and I do enjoy watching them grow, and I still feel like they are little. But, I love babies! I love hearing jibber-jabber. I love the senseless noise. I love the holding and the snuggling, I love the crawling, I love being needed and depended upon. I love sharing joy and love w/ only a smile. I love the laughter and new experience. I like the baths and diapers. I like getting them dressed! I really do! I absolutely love this time in my life. I never want to grow out of it or let it go! I hope my feelings translate to my kids and that they grow up knowing that I love them and have loved being their mother.
A thought... As my kids grow and need me less and less my only hope is that they know I love them. I need no thanks for all that I do, it really is the joy of my life. I am doing this because it brings me joy to raise them and to give to them. That is charity, and love isn't it? You give all that you have, for nothing in return, just because you have so much love.
I sat and read my book and O trotted around, he doesn't walk, he trotts! He kept going to the snow and taking a bite, I know gross, but a little bit won't kill him! He'd come on back and give me a wet slobbery kiss and go right back to the snow. He was jibber-jabbering all the while, speaking out loud in a language only he understands!
I got a little misty-eyed as I thought to myself that this is what I love. You are probably thinking it's been a long time since I've been in the sun! That too, but really my thought was I love being a mom. I love watching my kids. I love getting kissed and being loved by them. I love being the only one that understands that crazy language (not that I do much). I love seeing so much joy ooze out of these little people. I love that they are a part of me... even though they got some of the stuff I don't like! I have found so much joy through motherhood.
Sure it's trying, and I feel a huge burden to teach them and care for them, all while trying to do all my other motherly duties and non-motherly duties, all the while trying to stay happy and sane! But, this is what I love. This is what I was made for! This is teaching me about myself, this is filling my life with joy and this is where I fit. This will teach me 'the lessons I need to know'.
This morning I was changing out the little boys' clothes and I felt a little sad as I put away baby things. I don't know if I'm finished having kids, but to have yet another one grow out of these things made me a little sad. I wonder if I will love the other seasons of my life as much as I love early motherhood. I love having older kids and I do enjoy watching them grow, and I still feel like they are little. But, I love babies! I love hearing jibber-jabber. I love the senseless noise. I love the holding and the snuggling, I love the crawling, I love being needed and depended upon. I love sharing joy and love w/ only a smile. I love the laughter and new experience. I like the baths and diapers. I like getting them dressed! I really do! I absolutely love this time in my life. I never want to grow out of it or let it go! I hope my feelings translate to my kids and that they grow up knowing that I love them and have loved being their mother.
A thought... As my kids grow and need me less and less my only hope is that they know I love them. I need no thanks for all that I do, it really is the joy of my life. I am doing this because it brings me joy to raise them and to give to them. That is charity, and love isn't it? You give all that you have, for nothing in return, just because you have so much love.